It is rare that all the stars align for me to actually be brought to tears during a spanking. It's not usually a goal either because it seems if I aimed for that I'd be setting myself up for failure. So many things have to fall into place. I have taken some fairly hard ones but it's not the physical pain that gets me to that point. It has to happen in my head. The person spanking me needs to get in my head. Talking helps. When I have to respond to questions it keeps me in the moment and focusing on what is happening rather than letting my stressed out mind wander off worrying about something else. Letting myself submit to it, like Alex wrote about here.
I feel very connected to S when he spanks me. He is a considerate and caring person and top. He has helped me push my limits before when that's where I needed to go. I trust him to do that. He's spanked me in this last week and I felt I wussed out. He started with the leather paddle, a favorite, and even that was testing me early on. Everything stung and I had a hard time staying in place. The wooden paddle was even harder to tolerate. By the time he got to the cane, I was nearly leaping off the bed with each stroke. I squirmed all over the place which I'm sure made it very difficult to aim. It didn't last much longer after that but I did get some cuddling time which was nice.
|My idea of fireplay|
I took the question to Fetlife about if it was safe to eat Peeps roasted in a fireplace or if I'd die of toxic chemical intake or something. The answers I got were all yes it should be fine and some had done the same thing on a gas stove. That was all the reassurance I needed. I untwisted a hanger and started roasting. Note- Though they tasted just fine, they burn MUCH quicker this way than over a real wood fire.
This is the perfect treat for Peeps lovers and also for people who hate the texture of Peeps but like the marshmallow flavor. If you just don't like marshmallows, you won't like these either. And what is wrong with you anyway? They come in milk chocolate and dark chocolate and were delicious. I say were in past tense because hello, they've since been eaten. She found them in the candy aisle at a local grocery store with the rest of the Easter stuff, so check out a store near you!
So many ideas!